My name is Maryann, I am a primary care physician specializing in the care of teenagers and adolescents. This age group has special needs and most physicians do not have the time or the patience to deal with them. I chose this age group because of the humiliation I had gone through at that age with my own doctor. When I tell you about my experience you will see why I give them special care. I remember it like it was yesterday.
I had just come home from school when mom said that she received a letter from the nurses office. “Your medical records are not up to date,” mom said. “The school said that you need to have your immunization record brought up to date.”
I started to complain. “But mom you know I hate getting needles and I don’t like going to the doctor.”
Mom told me. “Your complaining will do you no good, you need these to be allowed in school.” I wasn’t all that concerned about being allowed to stay in school.
We had just moved here and in the two weeks school had been in I already didn’t like it. “I’ve already made an appointment for you with a doctor that the school recommended.” Mom told me. “It’s only two shots and it will be all over before you know it. Your appointment is for right after school tomorrow,” she told me.
I asked some of the girl in school if they knew what this doctor was like, but they said that although they had never been, there they heard that it wasn’t such a bad place. I went to the doctor’s office on my way home from school. As I entered the waiting room I noticed it was very crowded. I remember thinking to myself, “I’m going to be here all night.” I went up to the receptionist and said, “Hello, my name is Maryann, my mother said I had an appointment this afternoon.”
“Yes,” the lady said. “We’ve gotten a little behind schedule today, but the wait should not be to long.”
I sat down in the only chair that was empty, next to a boy I thought was about fifteen or sixteen, he seemed even more nervous than I was to be here. I asked him, “Is this your first time coming to this doctor?”
“No,” he replied “ I’ve been here twice before and I hate it here, but this is where the school makes us go.” Just as I was going to ask why he hated this place the nurse called his name and he had to go. I could not help but notice the look of fear or maybe panic on his face as he left. I saw that most of the school age patients had that same look of apprehension as that other boy did. The office door opened, and to my surprise the nurse called my name, although there were still people waiting before me.
“Hi,” she said, “My name is Nancy and since you’re only here for your shots I’ll take care of you so you wont have to wait for the doctor.”
“That’s great,” I said “ I really don’t like going to the doctor’s very much.”
Nancy told me “ I do not like it myself but sometimes, like this, you have no choice.” Nancy seemed like a nice person, and I was beginning to think that maybe this isn’t going to be as bad as I thought. Nancy brought me down the hall and opened the door to one of the rooms.
“Just have a seat in here and I’ll be back in a minute,” she said. She closed the door but not all the way, I could still see people going in and out of the other rooms. I saw the guy I was talking to come out of the room across the hall, he was escorted by young girl that I had seen around the school, I thought she was a student, but maybe I was wrong.
The young man seemed to have tears in his eyes, like he was afraid of what was about to happen. I admit that I was quite scared myself .While I waited for Nancy to return I promised myself that as much as I hated shots, I was determined to take them like a big girl, no crying, no fuss, nothing. Nancy came back but this time that young girl was with her. She introduced her. “This is Sue, she is training as a nurses aide and will be assisting me today, I hope you don’t mind.” Actually I did mind but I knew that I would have no say in the matter. Now I really had to take these shots like a grownup or else the whole school would know that I acted like a baby. I sat there with my sleeve rolled up and waiting for the ordeal to be over with. As much as I tried not to look over in her direction, I saw them filling the two syringes, after seeing the size of those two needles I was no longer very sure about taking this like an adult.
Nancy then asked me to stand up and face the wall, I guessed that it was easier for her if I didn’t see the needles coming. As she walked over I braced myself for the pain, but I was not prepared for it when Sue reached down and lifted my skirt. “Hey, wait a minute, is this really necessary?’ I asked.
Nancy said, “These types of shots must go into larger muscles, now just relax this will only take a minute.” I stood there with my skirt lifted and one of my schoolmates looking at my underwear, when suddenly, I felt a hand under the waistband of my panties. The next thing I know my underwear is down around my ankles, and I feel a sharp pain as the first needle pokes me in the rear.
I began yelling, “ Hey that hurts, stop,” but she keeps going and I feel the second one now penetrating my butt, and it hurts more than the first one. Again I start yelling, “Quit it, that hurts, please no more.” Nancy finished and removed the needles, she apologized for the pain but told me that I had to have these shots. My undies still around my ankles Nancy tells me to bend over again so she can wipe the injection sites. I bend over and Sue lifts my skirt again, I definitely do not like this and can’t wait to go home. While she places two small bandages on me someone knocks on the door.
“Come in,” she says as I hastily try to pull up my panties. Another young girl comes in and asks, “Are you Maryann?”
“Yes,” I replied.
“Your mother is on the phone and wants to talk to you,” she said.
I picked up the phone in the hall. “Hello, mom are you there?” I said.
“Yes” she answered. “The school sent another letter today, you also need to have a complete physical, I spoke to the receptionist and they will do it while you are there now.”
I protested, “No mom wait, please not today, and not here.”
Mom replied, “Don’t be silly, you’re already there just get it done and over with, and I’ll see you when you get home.”
The worst feeling of my life just came over me, and I realized that this was going to be the worst day of my life. Nancy told Sue, “Put her in room two, it’s better equipped for doing school physicals.”
I we walked down the hall all I could think of was how much equipment do you need for a simple exam? If that’s all this was going to be. Then I thought of the look on the young man’s face when he came out of the other room, and I began to panic a bit myself. Sue led me into the other room and handed me some forms to fill out. She told me to, “Be sure you fill them out completely, leave no blank spaces and no unanswered questions.”
That alone was starting to sound ominous, before looking at the forms I looked around the room. I noticed a metal stand with what I believed was an enema bag on it, there was a metal tray with all sorts of instruments that I didn’t want to know what they were used for. By far the worst thing I saw was the exam table, sitting there with the stirrups extended and restraints near the arms and feet.
I had always heard that girls should have their first adult exam at around sixteen, but surely it wouldn’t be done by a school doctor, at least I hoped not. I began filling out the forms and had no problem with all the basic medical history and other questions until I came to the last page. These were all questions about sexual activity, orgasms, and other personal things that I would not even discus with my mother, never mind write it down for others to read. Like it or not most of that last page stayed blank.
Nancy and Sue returned a few minutes later and asked me if I was ready.
“Do I have a choice?” I asked, and Nancy said, “Not really.”
“All right Maryann,” Nancy said, “I need you to get completely undressed, everything has to come off.” Since they had already seen my bare behind I guessed this wasn’t a big deal. I stripped down to my bra and panties and asked for a gown to wear. Sue said, “First you have to finish undressing so we can weigh and measure you then you can put a gown on.”
I asked Nancy, “What difference will my underwear make? It’s only a couple of ounces.
Sue answered, “These are the rules, we don’t make them we just follow them.”
I was totally embarrassed standing here naked in front of two strangers, even my boyfriend hasn’t seen this much of me. “Now just stand on the scale so we can get your weight. Okay now turnaround so we can check your height, and stand up straight,” Nancy said. I kept my hands in front of me to try to keep myself covered at least a little bit. As I stepped off the scale I was handed a gown, finally something to cover myself with.
“Sue and I will prep you and do all the minor parts of your exam so the doctor won’t be so long,” Nancy said. “Please lie on the table, face down for a minute and we will get started,” Nancy told me.
They were getting something out of the drawer, but I couldn’t see what it was. They walked back to the table and as I turned to ask what they were going to do my gown flew open and Sue was spreading the cheeks of my butt.
I asked, “Hey, what are you doing to me?” But before I could get it all out I felt something being pushed in my butt.
“Just relax,” Sue said, “We’re only taking your temperature.” I did not like this at all, I could feel the tears filling my eyes. While Nancy held the thermometer in place Sue pulled the stand with the enema bag over.
“No way!” I protested. “There is no way you’re giving me one of those, no way at all.”
Nancy said, “If you don’t cooperate we will have to use these restraints, and you don’t really want us to have to do that, do you?”
“No,” I replied, “But is that really necessary, I mean really?”
Nancy’s answer was the same as Sue’s, “We just follow the rules Besides you need to be cleaned out for your rectal exam. Now please just calm down and lift your butt in the air a little for me, okay.”
I did as I was told, I did not even want to think about the restraints, I could just hear it all over school tomorrow, Maryann had to be tied down to get her enema, I don’t think I could ever live that down.
Sue spread my cheeks apart again as Nancy inserted the nozzle. I began to feel sick as I felt the fluid rush in. It seemed to take forever to empty that bag although it was probably less than five minutes. Once the bag was empty Nancy said, “Okay, you did good, now just lie still until Sue comes back with the bedpan.” Bedpan I thought, how much more humiliation was I going to be subjected to?
Sue returned and said, “Follow me,” as she opened the door wide enough for anyone walking by to see my bare butt.
I asked, “Where are we going?” and Sue said she would show me to the bathroom. After relieving myself I was escorted back to the room, I had hoped that this entire ordeal would be over soon, and with as little additional humiliation as possible.
Shortly after returning the doctor came in, he was accompanied by another young man I guessed was about the same age as Sue. “Good afternoon,” he said. “I am Dr. Willis, and this young man is Jim, he is training as a medical assistant and will be observing your exam”
“Does he really have to be here?” I asked “This whole day has been very embarrassing, and I feel very uncomfortable having another student watching this.”
“Nonsense,” he replied “There is nothing to be ashamed of, we do this all day long. Now stand up and turn around and lets get a good look at you.” I stood up and faced the wall, suddenly I felt the gown being untied and before I could move my hand it hit the floor.” You won’t be needing this anymore, beside it will only get in the way,” he said. Now I am standing here, totally naked in front of this strange doctor and his high school age assistant and the tears are beginning to trickle down my face
Now I am turned all the way around so he can get a good look and he and his assistant can get their jollies from my embarrassment. “Since the nurse and her assistant did most of the preliminary exam we only have a few thing to finish,” he told me. “Now please lie flat on the table and we can begin your breast exam,” he said. I gave up resisting, there was no way out of this, I figured that the faster I did what he wanted, the faster this would end.
I lay on table as he requested. The doctor stood on my left side and instructed Jim to stand on the other side of the table, this way he could closely watch what was being done. The doctor began pushing and squeezing my left breast, working his way from the base to my nipple, which he then began pinching. He said to Jim, “You see how it’s done, making sure to thoroughly examine the entire breast.”
“Yes sir I see how,” Jim told him .
“Good” the doctor said. “ Now you try the other one” I remained perfectly still, with my eyes closed, still not believing that this humiliation was really happening to me. Jim seemed to take longer than the doctor to finish his part of the exam, but finally did so. Next the doctor said, “Okay young lady, please put your feet in the stirrups and slide all the way to the end of the table, please keep your legs spread as far apart as possible.”
I moved to the end of the table, I guess it wasn’t far enough for him because he grabbed my hips and pulled me further down, so far that I thought that I would fall off the end. I put my feet up and he pushed my legs as far apart as he could. Then the doctor put on a pair of glove and instructed Jim top do the same. I tried to put my mind someplace else for a few minutes, but before I could tune them out I felt something cold and slippery between my legs. Almost instantly I could feel him push his fingers inside of me, it was one of the worst feelings I ever had, and I knew it was going to get worse.
After a few minutes of his feeling around inside me he proclaimed, “Good news young lady, your first pelvic exam felt perfectly normal. Now I want Jim to feel what a normal exam should feel like.” Jim moved to the end of the table and quickly pushed his fingers into me. I could feel his fingers moving around inside me, I remember wishing he would just hurry up and get this thing over with. a few minutes later he removed his fingers and gave the doctor a nod of approval.
The doctor then stepped back over to the table and said, “ You have been a great patient so far and we have only one thing left to do.” Great I thought I am almost out of here. “ Please turn over and raise your butt in the air so we can do your rectal exam,” he told me .I removed my feet from the stirrups and proceeded to turn over.
“Please kneel on the table with your head down and your butt up,” he instructed. I did as I was told, happy that this was almost over with. as soon as I was in position I felt him spread my ass cheeks, then I felt that cold slippery stuff again. “Now just relax,” he said. “You’re going to feel a slight poke in a second.” As hard as I tried there was no way to relax, I felt my cheeks spread again and then something larger than his finger penetrate me .I began crying, it really hurt this time and I could no longer control myself. After a couple of seconds it began to hurt even more.
The doctor explained that he had inserted a proctoscope and would be finished in only a minute. I began screaming as he pushed that thing into me. He began telling Jim, “These things can be a little uncomfortable, but these exams must be done.” He finished and removed the scope, my ass was still sore but beginning to feel a little better when he said he was finished and that I could get dressed. I was never so happy to out of any one place in my entire life, and I vowed that I would never let myself be sent there again.